Happiness is not something we need to deserve, it's not something we need to make time for or achieve - we didn't come to this earth needing to deserve it at all. It's not even our right - it simply is who we are. Happy is what we came here to be.
No matter who you are, no matter what you did, no matter what you have or have not achieved, not matter where you were born and no matter what your story is - you deserve to be happy. Every single one of us does. And I feel like these words need to be written or said out loud, because we seem to have forgotten this truth: this truth that we deserve happiness and that we cannot be excluded from it.
For some reason, when I got sick, I started to believe that I did something wrong. I got tricked into this belief that I had done something wrong to deserve this and that because of that I didn't deserve to be happy. I felt like I needed to do something right in order to deserve to be happy again, like I needed to achieve something first before I could let happiness float back into my life. I felt like I failed: I couldn't do the whole 'I have a job, I work for money and so I deserve a house thing', which turned into a 'I don't work so I don't deserve anything' thing. Including happiness and enjoyment - which I felt like I needed to deserve first. By getting better. I seriously started to believe my own silly story, which was that I did something wrong to get so sick and that I needed to work harder in order to deserve health, money and happiness again.
As you're reading this you might think that's quite a crazy story, well it is. And it's not an easy one to share. But I think without realizing we all tell crazy stories to ourselves (all the time), keeping us from just being happy. From just being. Because, happiness is a really simple thing that doesn't have to do anything with any of the words I just wrote down: happiness is something that stands on it's own. It does not need to be deserved, you don't need to do anything for it. And there is nothing, nóthing you can do in order to not deserve it anymore. Disease was just my example, but I strongly believe and know that there is no human being that is excluded from happiness. And sometimes we need to mess up our lives -big time- in order to remember this.
I think what the Universe wants us to know, and what I learned during my time of disease, is that the universe does not exclude anyone, ever. No one is excluded from happiness. No one is excluded from support. No one is excluded from guidance. We simply can't be excluded from any of those things. We just need to remember that we deserve it, that we really, really deserve it without having to do ánything for it - and it will come to us. It's like a big giant cloud floating around in the air, available for everyone, we just need to grab it. We just need to let go of all our limited beliefs about having to earn, deserve or not deserve happiness - only then the cloud will become visible. And we'll realize it was there all along.
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